Recently I celebrated my 6th wedding anniversary, after having celebrated another round of birthdays for each of my kids…June, July, August – full of reminders that yet another year has gone by.
As I got into each celebration, I started thinking about how much my kids have grown. Naturally. But this year, I also thought about how much I have changed, grown, altered my perception.
I feel like so many of us stumble through the years of raising toddlers, it whizzing by, kind of losing ourselves because it goes by so fast to really think about what may be happening within you and outside of you. You are just trying to do you, but also trying to get little humans alive and happy, while doing your absolute best to not freak out or panic on all the things you are not getting done.
At least that is how I feel.
I feel like at some point, I did lose a bit of myself. Not in a negative way, but I just forgot to check in on how I was doing…what I needed. Truthfully, I just told myself I didn’t have time and put “me” on the backburner because I was either too tired, or…well, yeah, I was just too tired.
As women, we often feel the need to either portray that we have all our shit together, and it can be difficult for us unless we really talk about it.
To everyone that knows me and says to me “I don’t know how you do it” and maybe thinking my snapchats and Instagram is things coming easily or naturally…trust me, I don’t always have my shit together…at all. At least I don’t feel like I do.
To be honest, I think it was hard for me to admit how scattered and flighty I felt or how “I let myself go” because I am normally super organized and could never see myself being anything but.
Since I felt like that, I thought I should say so on this platform. Why?
So what am I going to do? I am giving myself a break.
No. I’m not taking a break…I am going easy on myself.
So, I am here saying…
So moms…give yourself a break. It is ok to change and it’s ok to do whatever you feel and want and need. Just smile and know you will find your true self so long as you just give yourself a break…and just be.